January 31, 2013 and February 1, 2013
Another rough, sleepless night. My next follow up visit is set for today, Super Purple Friday. I got a message from Ryan with a photo of him with purple hair- their ravens rally at work ended with purple spray paint. As I panned through the posts on Facebook about the upcoming football game, one struck me in particular.
A friend posted a video that aired on ESPN. I have plenty of free time, so I watched it. It's five minutes of your life, you should watch it, too. Let's be honest, most of you aren't working that much today anyway.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wd89IydtXyk
This student definitely put things in perspective. I complained last night about being sick and tired of staring at the ground, and that I was tired of my neck aching. Sick of the eye drops. All the other complaints that were pouring out of my mouth, they don't even measure up to what other people are dealing with. And I'm not saying that you should compare one person's struggle or issue to anyone else's, but what he said should resonate in everyone's mind.
"The only disability in life is a bad attitude." -Matthew Jeffers
He is a senior at my alma mater. And good for him for having his outlook on life. He has endured more in his short 21 years than most will in their entire life. And that is the same for many. Some will coast through life with minimal problems, and others will be confronted around every turn with some other obstacle.
Sleeping, eating, doing anything is frustrating in my position right now. I have been honest- it has been hard. But I can say that by the time this is all said and done, it will have been worth it.
This experience has been proof that what Matthew said is true. If Ryan hadn't kept his positive attitude, I would have pitied myself to no end. People like Matthew remind the world that even though your hand might not be in your favor right now, the game won't get any better with a poor attitude.
My appointment is at 3 PM today. I'll see if my retina is still attached and healing properly. Until I hear otherwise, I'm telling myself that it is.
Hi Tosh I caught up with your blog today and that inspiring video. You have been through a tough couple of weeks; hang in there. You are on the plus side now. Enjoy the game! xox Aunt Joan
ReplyDeleteJust realized I never replied to this! Everything is heading in a great direction now, looking back on all of it is hard, but I'm so thankful I've come this far and have been on the mend now :) And what a great game to have seen, that definitely helped with a boost of excitement!
DeleteMy Day 8 and 9: A NEW HOPE
ReplyDeleteHi Tasha, On day 8 I noticed a couple of black spots (I had many, many floaters a long time before this) so I was kind of bummed since I was hoping the floaters would be gone after the vitrectomy but then I told myself I was expecting too much.I then figured one of the spots was probably where the Doc sealed the tear.Then I noticed that if I held my head and eye a certain way I could see a small strip of clear sight! Progress!
Then today on day 9 I can see just a little above the bubble horizon depending on how bright the light is. I think the light bounces off the bubble and makes it blurry sometimes. The bubble is still huge but shrinking a little. Like you, I can see the bubble invading about halfway into my left eye. The bubble horizon is very annoying and I prefer to keep my right eye covered at this point but hey, I'll take it!
I thought I wouldn't have floaters any longer either! I only had a few, but I still have them. They come and go still, and aren't that bad or annoying (yet lol). I would say (and this is what I've been told) if a spot is new, persistent, or a significant difference, tell the doc just in case. Obviously you've learned through this blog I am super over-concerned about everything, though! But it sounds like your bubble is still pretty large, so it's probably just stuff light bouncing around. I would do the same thing you are doing- tilting different ways to try to see! It's amazing when you have that clear sight again!
DeleteThe light bouncing off the bubble for me creating a lot of glare and ghost images, for sure. Sounds like you're on the right track! Your bubble will probably be gone far sooner than mine; my bubble was still huge at the 9 day point, so you'll be seeing a lot more of the world again it seems sooner rather than later! Such a relief when that clear vision comes in! Definitely a mood booster, that's for sure!